.::: picard. its has always been all about you :::.

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

today was a very lethargic day... at first kinda disappointing...as the day went by it got worse... worse and worse and worse... after that HOCKEY MADE ME ALIVE AGAIN! WOOHOO! after school we went to serangoon stadium to play hockey... wah the caretaker there mad one lar...say cannot.. i ask why he say cannot means cannot (like primary sch kid liddat =X) and is not like the stadium got alot of people lor, practically no 1 lar... Zz. we then went all the way back to yck stadium to try, luckily this time no one got us out lar... but the playin area quite small, well still haf to make do wif it. basically played 2v2 short matches, it was quite fun cause haf to be creative in manvering round the defenders and passing mah... i scored a few also, so happy! hockey is so fun lar, it is a team game and allows you to use ur imagination to play... cool rite? dreaming and thinking of hockey every now and then...

...including u too...

i really think i did a stupid thing
dunno whether to luff
or hate myself
wonder how u felt
when u read it
wonder how u felt
when u saw it
wonder how u feel
whenever i am around u
do u even feel anything for me

beginning to realise
everything that has a beginning
has an end, too bad
mine din even start
did it even mean anything in the first place
feeling that i wasted
all my time, all my effort
well i still think it was worth it
cause it was for u

now i shall just pretend
nothing had ever happened
nth was said, nth was done
but saying it is one thing
doing is another
i cant take the fact
that all i done was for nth
i cant take the pain
that u felt nth
i cant take my mind
off of u

every now and then
i think of u
i think of wat u said
and reflected on myself
in the end
no matter how much encouragement
people give to me
no matter how much support
frens put on me
i still think that it is hopeless
why do i even care
why do i even bother
hopeful or regret
i dunno
if only u can tell me the answer

...if only u responded or told me straight

-- study hard, play hockey --

the story ends like this;

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01*profile

+ bensonsiow aka. iceboy*
+ seventeen this yr -- bdae unknown
+ code of conduct -- hitokiri loyalistbr> + cca -- ~~NPCC;~~ Hockey; + class -- 1706
+ zodiac -- capricon

02*where i belong(ed)

~~Maris Stella High School -- 10yrs~~
Anderson Junior College -- until 08

03*lurvves & hates
loves
*sports esp badminton
*computer games
*my frens
*my family
*myself* =P
of course... *you*
hates
_losers
...actually i am a very nice person =)

04*~my aspirations~

^to become a inventor/scientist
^to participate in WCG under the cs/winning 11 category
^to beome a magician (average one will do =D)
^to haf good academic results =P
^to make more new frens and less enemies
^to be skilled in sports (abit ambitious, juz those that i play often)
^to achieve 1st for AJC hockey!
^to sLiM down =X

last but not least...
^to make u happy =)