Sunday, May 07, 2006

sorry for not updating these few days, have been "accidentally" falling asleep while lying on my bed, too tired lar and the music is so loud and nice to fall asleep =X i also got scolded for leaving my com on for 4 hrs? anyways 4 hrs is nth lar since i start sleep at abt 10 plus =P finally got the energy to blog now... and i did the most AMAZING thing i ever did in my whole entire life - i actually bothered to tidy up my secondary sch stuff and file up my jc materials, WOW =D well enough of my "lameness" shall tell u guys my "exciting" stories, if u wanna hear that is, ready?


shall start from friday cause the rest of the days is kinda negligible =P i pon chinese on friday (eh is not amazing for a good boy like me to do that ok, i am not that guai =X) i went out wif charles, daniel, rong qing, thomas, wei lie, george and yee keong to go buy hockey sticks! haha whole bunch of ajcians going to buy hockey sticks, seems abit intimidating. we spent like 1 hr debating in the shop on wat type of sticks to buy (wth rite?) cause cannot buy wrong or too ex sticks mah... all looks so nice =P we then spent another half an hr to decide on wat colour? the best thing was when we FINALLY came to a decision the auntie told us no stock... Zz. charles, rq, daniel and me had to come back on sat to "claim" our sticks, but well we also had nth to do at home so might as well... after that we all went home... we played GCs in the train like some bunch of primary sch kids playing gameboy =X well cant blame the GC to be so good right?


saturday i had to wake up super early to accompany charles go running at stadium, over enthu lar he... i also kinda wanted to run anyways =P wah singaporeans nowadays are terrible, after rally throw the rubbish everywhere... until the whole stadium look like dumping area liddat... so dirty lar... well at least the track wasnt so bad, it was the field. we ran like 5 rounds only cause i was kinda sick then we also did some stupid routine, dunno how to call it actually, it basically train tigh muscles =) after that we met up wif daniel and rq to go collect our sticks... we still had to wait like 1 hr for the sticks? wah now the shop owners not really living up to their promises lor... say 12 means 12.. still got 2 pm one? we bought grays sticks, black in colour... looks cool also =X but more importantly quite comfortable wif it i guess. after that we met up wif yee keong and tony to go train hockey... we initially wanted to go back serangoon stadium to train but cause got some last min rally" so we decided to go back MSHS. wah coolness lar go back sec sch to use their facilities, abit retarded lar but there got multi purpose court mah and always go hole at the fence for u to climb thru one =D we then use our new sticks to play, at first abit heart breaking to hit wif the sticks lar but then no choice haf to do it for training. we also had 2 short matches against each other, 3v3 altho very tiring lar but alot of goals were scored (i scored none but created alot =P). more and more in love with hockey =D


...just like how i am more and more in love wif u...


~sorry guys for hitting the ball into ur legs, accidentally one hope u guys will understand, sorry!~


many problems haf surfaced
yet not enough solutions have come to light
not only for me
but for the people around me too
i really wish i could see the future
tell them the answers
so that i could cheer them up more
my friends, please do cheer up
dun worry, be happy
not only my classmates
but for my peers as well
frens are around you for a reason
the reason is to share the burden you are carrying


i know i maybe have offended some people
i am really not too sure of myself
maybe cause the words i say
or the things i do
sorry i am changing
to my past, forget my present
cause thats not the real me
i promise to find my real inner self
improving my character for the better
please forgive me and give me time


...thanks...


looking at squall's necklace
thinking about the wonderful love story behind it
altho it was a fantasy
but it was romantic and perfect
why cant the world be the same
reality brings us back to the ground
still we dare dream of it
one day hoping it would come true


i dun wan it to be a obligation
i dun wan it out of pity
or even worse, sympathy
i wan u to feel touched
or even better, love me too
but wat am i thinking
never it will come true
hardly i guess


...been able to do anything, except having more courage and caring towards u...


questions linger in my mind
are we making progress
or are we just stagnant or drifting away
should i give up
or is there someone out there waiting for me
is there someone better than u
in my heart, u are uncomparable
just too special, just too perfect
just too good, for me


...is not whether you want it, is whether you can do it


~future belongs to people who believe in the beauty of their dreams~


...So when and how will I know
How much further do I have to go
How much longer until I finally know...


-- Crawling in the dark, Hoobastank --

the story ends like this;